Yeah, we are all sorts of confused. The other night at dinner I spewed out a random sentence in English in the middle of a conversation, real fast.
So I am back from the village, and I am going to be very conservative about this entry. It wasn’t a good experience, but it wasn’t a bad experience. It was mixed, and one of the most highly e,otional events in my life.
First of all, few if none reading this can really understand what I’ve just been through. It is the most isolated and lonely I have ever been in my entire life, and simultaneously the most objectified and emotionally violated I have ever felt. On the whole, however, the moments of pure cultural exchange were some of the most valuable experiences I have ever had.
Friday morning we boarded taxi-brousses specially chartered for us and go dropped off one after the other. I expect this would have been painful if you weren’t number two and two hours in like I was.
The first thing I noticed was the village, which is gorgeous and nestled in the hills of the Bongolava Region. A lot of the houses are made of earth and earth bricks, which is a dark red and very beautiful. When I got out of the van, I had about twenty children gathered, staring at me. This group would double and become a permanent legion of stalkers/watchers. I was introduced to my host father and brother who speak French (a relief since this was not a guaranteed element of the village stay) and the man with the NGO that organized all of this said, “well, see you in five days.”
I was shown to my room, which was a dining room, and like most of the others I shared a bed with my host sister…though she was married and I never figured out why. I think it was village hospitality which here dictates that no one is alone. Everrrrr.
My family consisted of two grandparents, my host father Philippe, and my host brother/sister in law Guy and Nirina. They had three children who were both adorable and terrifying hellraisers, depending on the day. Kepp in mind: I am not a children person, and this did not alleviate that.
I was watched almost all the time. While I took naps, while I ate, while I studied. When I left the house the crowd followed me. I couldn’t get the kids to play with me, they would just stop and stare if I tried to join in. I was followed by the yells of “Vahaza!” I got a little freaked when they encircled me, just because I was so on the spot.
I spent a lot of time taking walks and making courtesy visits: to the mayor, to the cheif of the fokotany (Malagasy administrative district), to the pastor, to the only woman in town with a car. They were really proud to both show me off and show me what they had: a television, for example, powered by a car battery, and their machine that gets the hard, inedible shells off of the rice (something that marks them as affluent in the village setting).
The cultural exchange was so rewarding. Its so amazing the connection I made with my family, particularly the grandfathher, or “Dada be”, who spoke only Malagasy. We spent hours talking with my host father translating, and sometimes just sat there with him going over words in English and Malagasy. Once my host father came home and he announced, “I am learning English!”
They wanted to know everything about America, of which they knew nothing. The bittersweet thing is that Americans are generally viewed by what they give them, thus I was asked to stay and teach English, asked for almost all of my belongings, asked to borrow money, and treated like a portrait artist. These things aren’t meant to be offensive and aren’t even considered rude here, but it was a little exhausting refusing and trying to refute all of these images of the American as some kind of filthy rich Santa Claus figure. It made me cry once, because I really just wanted something familiar, someone I could communicate with, since the French there is even so different that sometimes communication is impossible. I was so lonely, but I was probably only alone for a total of fifteen minutes in five days.
One day we went to the river, where all of the women were doing their wash and all the children were playing. That was really wonderful. The next day my host dad asked if I wanted to go to church in the next village with my friend Jill and I said, yes please! It was nice to speak in English for a few hours, even though we were watched and it felt like some kind of weirdly arranged playdate. We had a meeting the last day in Bevato, the Commune Center, and the walk back was two hours long. Which is more of a hike than a walk, but people don’t really get caught up in definitions here.
It was on that walk in this amazing countryside, hours from anything that could be considered civilization, that I realized, holy cow, I am in Africa, walking back to the rural village where I have been living, and I am about to wade through a river.
It was pretty exhilarating, to say I’ve done it. Sparse electricity, bathroom a hole in the ground. To be honest, I prefer picking a bush, because of the smell and the fact that anywhere a lot of waste is gathered draws in vermin. Cockroaches, spiders, and the worst for some reason, mice. My host sister laughed so hard when I ran out of the WC screaming about a mouse. I ate rice, lots of rice. The “loaka” (stuff that goes with rice) was usually a little sparse, and I got really excited when we had fish because of the protein. I shouted “trondro!” which is Malagasy for fish and they all thought that was pretty funny. I liked speaking what little Malagasy I knew because I got treated more like an animal with cute tricks than an objectified anomaly. I mean, everyone’s married by my age out there, so I was asked about my husband, and then for my number, many many times.
The children were the hardest part; because, let’s face it, I am no Mary Poppins. But I did bond with a couple of sweet little girls, and the last night they were hanging out in my room with me and it was nice. So I am slightly more maternal than a brick wall (although I think a dead gerbil might have me beat). They were always at the house, too, because my host father is a wonderful man who works with the NGO and works with orphans. Really, such a sweet, helpful, earnest man, and I am blessed to know him.
Overall, my family was great and the experience was simultaneously the most difficult and wonderful thing I have ever participated in.
That said, those little brats got me sick. I felt like death Sunday night so my host family here in Tana got a hold of our academic director, who got a doctor out to us. It’s either a virus or a parasite or both, so I was prescribed meds for both. I am kind of excited about the parasite possibility. “Africa? there are crazy parasites there.” “Well, actually…”
Though reality is I will probably never know. I will take the anti-parasite drugs and just get better.
Tomorrow I leave for Mahajanga, which I am pretty excited about. I finally get to live on the coast! Though it looks like I will be studying literacy rates and communication in the southwestern coastal town of Tulear, so I will get some coast then, too. I might also be living in a convent there? More as that exciting and bizarre situation develops.
Send my love to Austin, Texas. You have no idea how much I miss it’s familiar, English-speaking streets.